Sorta glad I'm single. Girls cry a lot

the guys that work for betus.com are such scumbag bros

oh well, im glad im getting my money out of there asap

Notes I've been taking on Angel's CHRISTIAN MUSIC SHOWCASE flyer

CONTEMPORARY CHRISTIAN FINE ARTS CELEBRATION

(am i a fan? it's okay to be a fan and a watcher and not a doer. only when it comes to God?)

-day two of not smoking, fuck having poor lungs

(I really have to make this shit more legible at least I've decided to record these notes

the day or day after I take them to keep them fresh in my mind)

-Latin Gospel singer mixing spanish with english vocals and a girl who looked like Macy Gray. It was interesting to say the least. I guess the reason I jotted this down was because I wanted to point out the fact that foreign languages can make good trolling tools.

-Pastor making stupid periwinkle and mauve jokes. By the way, as a writer, I am terrible with colors. And names of flowers and trees. And adjectives in general. And anything other than English. Fuck.

(getting mad at soojin; posting 1 night in china links everywhere.... maybe I should stop being SO dumb on facebook)

"honor the talents god has given you"

"God can undo what they can't"

(by the way, I'd like to point out here how much it bothers me that ashley fraser is posting on james' wall AGAIN, and how shes lost weight and looks really pretty. crap. i really need to be stepping it up.. - though i can feel with some relaxation and more work i'm almost at the NEXT LEVEL)

"she plays several instruments" - manli about some girl? amy loredo? I don't know what I was doing here except trying to motivate myself. But that sort of thing isn't motivating it's discouraging. Fusing yourself with an instrument or an idea or whatever is more encouraging.

--Richard's girlfriend Ellen getting addicted to nicotine patches instead of cigarettes... or nicorette gum

-How many kids are there like angel who dont believe in God yet continue the charade because people are sweet and need something tobelong to?

(Rushed notes because I really want to go get breakfast)

--Going to the altar unexpectedly

-strange guy doing the cut neck symbol to some girl during her piece

left handed asian guitar player who just had a dead look on his face

"we're really graduating in 3 weeks and we're scared" - proof everyone is scared

(angels mic getting cut) - getting forced to go to the CHRISTIAN ART SHOW AFTERWARDS too egh

"showcase their talents, art doesn't usually get showcased because it's a very private thing"

(i need to showcase my "talents" as well)

~~~itchy drugged out guy during a sermon (good character)

(for kids holding themselves back... how many of these kids are? nah, sometimes God really does unleash peoples true potentials by keeping them less focused on the bigger issues)

Manli - "Can you move your eye to the left and then to the right?" - trick she played on me by moving both eyes to the left then to the right

-Angels' boyfriends cousin Tanner having one of those hands where you can bend the fingers all the way back. Strange joints. Would we have burnt these types of people alive back in the day? When did we stop doing that? Were there protests?

"Slutwalk" and getting upset at sexual liberation like that...

--talking to manli about shakespeares influence and how he was overrated and was only famous because he was friends with the queen. she asked me if i liked him and i gave that bs answer of appreciating it more in college and reading more plays than i actually did. she says she likes john keats better because he was more in tune with his emotions and noted that death doesn't always have to be the only symbol of tragedy (i gave the example of oedipus). she also just said if i don't get to this breakfast place by 11 it'll get busy)

-that stripper Soo telling me to go to Asia and make it

(Better start learning chinese now)

"twitter music/film reviews"

angel saying dad thought the broccoli in the dharma's lasagna was gross

"this is for god this is what we hold on to, this is our passion"

"SABBATH FTL"

"i dont want any anorexic people watching this film cause i dont want to change anyone (food film) - me"

-developing crushes on girls from movies from 1992/1994 (chungking express)

-insinuating that james and jenga teague love cathy comics

aaron - "potato beer (versus root beer) and saying thunder thighs and newb over and over again. "he's at that annoying age (11)"

aaron - "Are you afraid of death?" - me and him shooting each other in the face over and over again, me doing it while he was playing video games

--taking that chinese celebrity to castro and freaking him out "NO WHAT ARE YOU GAY? I DONT WANT TO GO THERE"

"angels water looks like soup" - albert on angels backwashing back into her water when she was young

dharma hippies all have tans - i could be happy living in santa cruz

"newbs not a word you have to call me a novice " - manli

(loneliness in all its forms - chungking express"

angel wearing a harvard sweater for no reason

walla wala washington

"Dont air dry your hair it gives you a headache"

-manli "ok" my hair looks better blow dryed anyway

"is there anything in this world that doesn't expire? " - chungking express

2ND BATHROOM AROUND THE CORNER " sign

that people seemed to ignore at dharmas. also a wacky mirror. the guy who came up to me said WAITING FOR BATHROOM EH? and i told him there was another one and he ran away.

-chinese people who dont assimilate into the culture of USA and dont learn the language and can't make any friends and count the days til they can go home to beijing... so sad. wherever i go, i need to learn the language

-people who cant just memorize things to get a's, they need to understand things in order to learn them (i thought i was like this, but then i remembered the time jojo gave me a dollar a word to learn SAT words and i could only learn them by number the day of."

BORIS char in a BAND?

gongong tutoring manli and me (was i good at math because of him)

aaron calling some kid a luh suh ren garbage man

"if you die in the future can i have your notes" -aaron and angel

perhaps I should just publish them already so there's no need

BREAKING NEWS:

JAMES DOESN'T BRUSH HIS TEETH!!

okay that's it time for breakfast (i like this kind of work)

I'm in Santa Cruz playing shikuhachi, growing bored of it. Refocusing efforts on uke... thinking about guitar a lot. Watched Chungking express which made me realize I need to level up GREATLY in music AND language if I want to be the world-class type of director I imagine myself to be. (and film editing)